By now I should be listed on the UNOS transplant list. This whole thing is a little surreal. Ever since I found out about my funky kidneys and my kidney disease, I knew I'd need a transplant someday. I just didn't know that "someday" would be now. Someday always denotes some far-off future date. It's funny how easily you can convince yourself that "someday" may never come--or maybe I was just hoping it would never come. Now that the process has begun, I can say that I'm actually looking forward to the transplant. Not the actual procedure and the immediate aftermath, but down the road from it a bit. In my minds eye there is a hill. I can see light near the top of what I imagine is a beautiful sunrise. All I have to do is make it over the horizon.